Time is a funny thing. When we were young, it went by slowwwwwly. Adults said, just wait, when you get older, time will fly. Guess what, they were right. I feel like in a blink of an eye, 2018 went by at a speed that was unreal.
Continue readingThe holidays are over. Thank goodness. I am hoping the next few weeks will allow me to catch up and not be crippled by the roller coaster the past couple of months have been. I am coming back today after over a week off from work. I responded here and there to some emails, but mainly took this time to be as quiet as I could and allow some of the grief for my dad, and get through the holidays. Continue reading
Last week I wrote about anxiety and lack there of. I have learned, and some may call this morbid, that I can not count on one thing or another with myself to last too long in that department. The challenge with PTSD is it never goes away and has this intimate dance alongside of anxiety. I recently read the title of an article called “high functioning anxiety.” My response was a hmfph, I got me some of that. I don’t stop. Well, that is not true. I have taught myself to. It is of course “scheduled” down time, god forbid I just allow it, right?! One of the ways I “deal with/manage/live with” the running movie reel in my head is to do and distract. When the PTSD and anxiety is particularly bad, you can count on me to ramp things up on my to do list. Continue reading