I got a call from my sister a week ago that my dad was not doing well. Again. This has been almost a year at this point on and off. He has been in the hospital essentially since September. Continue reading
Over the past three and a half years, I have watched, observed, and worried for my daughter Raffi, who is now officially a teen. Jesse came into her life when she was two and was first her daddy Jesse then her daddy. He connected with her in ways that to this day, I cannot copy. Her heart, along with mine were shattered on May 8, 2014 when I came home to find that he had killed Bella, her sister, and himself. Continue reading
I was on vacation last week, and the first part, as you read was in a peaceful setting in beautiful upstate NY. I anxiously awaited going to Long Island to see my dad, who has been quite ill and in the hospital over the last month. The beginning of the week, I questioned whether this would be the last visit. A lot of emotions swirled around as you can imagine. Continue reading
It still surprises me how much your body can hi-jack you. This one is going to be rather short as my to do list is a thousand miles long, but I wanted to share part of my Sunday with you. Continue reading
I have struggled since Jess and Maribella have died with the concept of faith. Being raised Catholic, I never felt comfortable with that train of thought and leaned more toward a paganistic spiritual kind of way. Ish. Since they have died it has vacillated between spiritual, agnostic, and atheism. Continue reading
I have had many opportunities to see how I have progressed over the past few weeks, and also the glaring reminder of the “new normal challenges” that have taken up residence in my system popping up unexpectedly like an alien take-over. Continue reading
You will have to forgive me as this blog will be a bit shorter. I am juggling a lot of potentially great things right now, and my mind is distracted on dotting i’s and crossing t’s. However, I read an amazing article this week by Thomas Joiner.
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Yesterday was the eclipse. Here in Oregon, there was a large part of the state that was going to be in totality, so we decided to camp near it and head in the morning to a spot to see the big event. Continue reading
A cruise you may ask? Well, it is not exactly the cruise itself, but the people who were on it… Continue reading
I remember three years ago, I had just closed on my house, and my brother in law was helping me paint before we moved everything in. It was the 4th of July and we were working into the night trying to get Raffi’s room done so that she would feel more “at home” after everything that had happened. I remember vividly the first explosions of the night as dusk fell. My heart started to pound frantically in my chest and I had my first real instance of what PTSD was. Continue reading