I have spent a lot of time recently working on gratitude. It can be tricky, as most things in my life. Yet, study after study shows that when you take time each day to focus on it, it can help with depression, outlook, hopelessness. Ironically, when you are struggling with those things, it can be next to impossible to grasp at.
I can count on one hand how many days since Jesse and Bella died in 2014 that I have had motivation and energy for an entire day. It actually astounds me that I have gotten as much done as I have. Continue reading
I have spoke of this before, the albatross that lives within, waiting for an opportunity to remind me that it thinks we are the best of friends… Continue reading
I worried before Jesse and Bella died. I think it was a normal amount? Hard to say. I do know however, after, it escalated. Continue reading
Between traveling and starting whole 30 nine days ago, I have not been running. I am not a natural runner, am slow as molasses, don’t love it, but do it for sanity purposes. It has consistently been the one thing since Jesse and Bella died that has helped. All the things they say about exercise helping depression are true. Continue reading
I am going to give you a peek into me from 430am this morning until now. Right now I feel like a carbonated beverage that has been shaken up so much, and the cap is holding on barely. Continue reading
I was on vacation last week, and the first part, as you read was in a peaceful setting in beautiful upstate NY. I anxiously awaited going to Long Island to see my dad, who has been quite ill and in the hospital over the last month. The beginning of the week, I questioned whether this would be the last visit. A lot of emotions swirled around as you can imagine. Continue reading
I am sitting in one of the most peaceful places I have been in a long time, upstate NY, at my boyfriends parents house. I am looking out the window at a small lake, the leaves starting to turn into the glory we all wait for this time of year. This one will be short, as I am on vacation, but wanted to share some thoughts on a movie we watched last night, Manchester by the Sea. Continue reading
I have had many opportunities to see how I have progressed over the past few weeks, and also the glaring reminder of the “new normal challenges” that have taken up residence in my system popping up unexpectedly like an alien take-over. Continue reading
You will have to forgive me as this blog will be a bit shorter. I am juggling a lot of potentially great things right now, and my mind is distracted on dotting i’s and crossing t’s. However, I read an amazing article this week by Thomas Joiner.
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