I have spoke of this before, the albatross that lives within, waiting for an opportunity to remind me that it thinks we are the best of friends… Continue reading
Anxiety – the relationship I wish I could end
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The rare gift of absolute pure joy
You may have noticed I have not posted in the last couple of weeks. The last two Tuesdays have been about 14+ hour days, and for my sanity, I needed to not add anything else to my to do lists. It has also been another few weeks of roller coasters. Continue reading
NAGC Conference
I tried last week, I really did, but just couldn’t
I tried to write last week, I really did, but I just couldn’t. I started a letter to Maribella for her upcoming birthday, and every time I wrote a line, a tear escaped, each tracing a new pattern down my face, a torrent threatening behind. All while I was numb. Continue reading
To the Press from a loss survivor of a murder/suicide
Warning: This may be triggering as it has some details of a murder/suicide death Continue reading
Worry barometer after a tragedy
I worried before Jesse and Bella died. I think it was a normal amount? Hard to say. I do know however, after, it escalated. Continue reading
Oh, that’s why I run
Between traveling and starting whole 30 nine days ago, I have not been running. I am not a natural runner, am slow as molasses, don’t love it, but do it for sanity purposes. It has consistently been the one thing since Jesse and Bella died that has helped. All the things they say about exercise helping depression are true. Continue reading
Mental break
I forget. I forget how much my body and mind are processing. All the time. Until it doesn’t. Continue reading
Four years
It is weird. Part feels like forever ago. Part feels like yesterday. I am actually writing this the day before, as tomorrow, I just don’t know how I am going to be. Continue reading
One week away…
You have seen over the last few weeks me in an extremely focused mode, going from one task to the next. The past week has been interesting as time closes in on this 4th anniversary. Continue reading