The dreaded marker of five years has come and gone.
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Five F*^&ing Years
It is completely surreal to me that it has been this long…
Continue readingUnraveling and re-raveling
It is the only way I can describe how I am feeling right now. There are many parts unraveling at varying speeds, whilst, others, are following behind and re-raveling to keep my sanity intact.
Continue readingEchoes in the quiet
I hear them (and not in a Sixth Sense kind of way, well, maybe). Both of them. Mostly her. The “quiet” times are the most prevalent…
Continue readingFour years, ten months, seventeen days
She was four years, ten months, and seventeen days when she died. Yesterday, it was four years, ten months, and seventeen days since she died. Today, she is dead longer than she was alive.
Continue readingTis the season
Spring is a busy time in the suicide prevention community in terms of conferences and fundraisers. For me, it coincides with the death of Jesse and Bella.
Continue readingI’m alive
It is weird to think that I had heart surgery less than two weeks ago. I am constantly awed at the advances we have made in western medicine that they did not have to crack me open to do this.
Continue readingHeart Surgery, no joke
I have sat down to write this several times today,as my heart is beating hard and feeling like it is going to pop out of my chest.
Continue readingWith Jesse, it’s complicated
It was Jesse’s birthday yesterday, he would have been 39. He has been on my mind a lot over the past few weeks, something I often don’t share.
Continue readingA broken heart
Literally.
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