I have been struggling to say the least. You may have noticed I have not been posting lately? Part of me felt it was selfish to post about her upcoming birthday with all that is going on in the world. And then the mama part of me could not let another birthday pass without acknowledging it…
Continue readingThe things that will never be
I look at pictures like this often. Sitting in my office are various pictures from Picture People of the kids. They died on Thursday May 8, 2014, we were scheduled for that Saturday for the 2014 Picture People pictures. I pulled out boxes from the attic that very morning promising Bella the next day we would figure out the outfits. It never happened. That among a million other things got added to the list of the things that never would be.
Continue readingA Sense of Purpose
Many of you know that I have delved into the world of advocay of all kinds after Jesse and Bella died. I did not want their deaths to be in vain. Recently, I have been struggling with it though.
Continue readingOne rung at a time
It has been a very dark eight weeks, a slippery slope down the rabbit hole where my mind has been getting darker by the day.
Continue reading40. You would have been 40.
After a death, there are many points in the calendar that will speak of the passage of time. Birthdays are one of them.
Continue readingDistractions via surgery and fireworks
It is new years day, 2020, and a helluva couple of weeks.
Continue readingSurgery, Christmas, and brain wonkiness
Yeah, I know, that is a variable title that pretty much sums up the present right now.
Continue readingI never got to say goodbye…
I was doing “well,” which is always a relative term with me this past weekend. I had a long hard day yesterday, and we settled into watch a couple shows to defrag, one of which was Call the Midwife.
Continue readingCaramel sauce
What’s in a title you may ask? Well, for starters, a picture of a successful batch of caramel.
Continue readingIt’s been awhile
It never ceases to amaze me how time flies by…
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