Dear one, if you only knew and believed how much I love you
I watch you daily struggle on the roller coaster of life yet yours has highs and lows unique; being a teen is hard enough, coming out as trans so brave trying to be in your body and in the world dysphoria daily along with your past crashing in stuff with your dad and daddy and Bella -that- elephant in the room that you dance around not wanting to touch emotions your enemy feeling for the first time such intensity struggling to focus to feel good to fit in to be happy; I want to shake you shake you so hard make you believe how much you are loved cherished how beautiful and amazing you are how talented,smart and strong loved by so many and truly understanding those demons those lying bastards within your mind weaving a story of lies that you are believing showing a face to us another to the world so much like Jesse I am sick to my stomach with worry a friends words resonating is this the night I want to tell you how scared I am yet I can't I have to be strong and yet, as strong as I am I am not I feel like crumbling triggers constant in my face trying not to layer you with the past actions fearing the worst constantly wondering am I going to walk in on another dead child will the dirty lying bastards in your brain win the energy coursing through my body not enough miles I can run to push it through make it better for you having to trust knowing we are doing everything we can asking the questions having the conversations; hoping you will believe that you are strong enough that the lies are lies and believe that treatment can and will help; that you will believe we all want you to stay
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