Worry – For my daughter

Over the past three and a half years, I have watched, observed, and worried for my daughter Raffi, who is now officially a teen. Jesse came into her life when she was two and was first her daddy Jesse then her daddy. He connected with her in ways that to this day, I cannot copy. Her heart, along with mine were shattered on May 8, 2014 when I came home to find that he had killed Bella, her sister, and himself.  Continue reading

New House

I want to start out to say that I am and have been grateful that I was able to find and buy another home after Jesse and Bella died. I can’t imagine the amount of messed up I would be having to stay in the house where it happened. I can barely drive by it and only have three times over the past three plus years.  Continue reading

Ripples

I was on vacation last week, and the first part, as you read was in a peaceful setting in beautiful upstate NY.  I anxiously awaited going to Long Island to see my dad, who has been quite ill and in the hospital over the last month.  The beginning of the week, I questioned whether this would be the last visit.  A lot of emotions swirled around as you can imagine. Continue reading