I wrote this September 2, 2015

walking blindly
toward the smoke
edging around
feeling
experiencing the heat
singeing parts
at times
retreating a bit
sometimes progressing
to feel
anything
but this pain inside
that already burns
fire with fire
primal fascination
desire to cleanse
start anew
a phoenix
alas
the past present
ever so clear
escape futile
no matter the distraction
senses overcome
overwrought
paralyzed
just stop
stop
it's not real
a dream
it just can't be
the mind plays tricks
confused
by the atrocity
chimerical in nature
yet
the images intimate
day to day
pertinacious
all trust
shattered
into a million pieces
never to be
resewn
armor created
a sentinel
no more pain
please
no more loss
caving
to these waves
joy tinged
bittersweet
acceptance
is the key
adrift
in the sea
smile lost
in the storm